Posts Tagged ‘suicide’

during the divorce people made some pretty harsh judgments about me

some were false

some were true

but no one judged me more harshly than i did
the upshot is this
when everyone condemns you
and deep inside, your response is
– ‘you don’t even know’
well, it’s ultimately very freeing

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another man danced with my whore this week

he paid her more than i have ever paid

she promised he could leave his pain in her

she teased him till it seemed a good idea

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pain
despair
self anger
self loathing
self hatred
loneliness
depression
isolation
hopelessness
withdrawal
failure
feeling like a burden
exhaustion
repetitive cycles